I tapped him then I said come as I opened my arms. He knew this was how I comforted him when he nightmares as he crawled into my arms. He kissed me on my neck then he said thank you. I know I wasn't suppose to be cuddling with another man but he needed me. About a few minutes later we dozed off and he never woke again through the night.
As we woken up I had to wake him cause he was so deep in sleep. My arm was a little numb but that's was cool I didn't mind. My phone kept ringing off with text messages from Dion and Nate. He said Chris in there sleep with you? Then Nate started asking a bunch of questions as well then he said go get em best friend just remember close one door before opening another. He then said that way no one will get hurt in the end. Free yourself of something you forcing yourself to love instead of loving what is easy to love.
Chris: They beating your phone bad asking about me right? Let me come out here
Me: Yea they nosey but can I have my arm back now because numb as hell.
Chris: No! I want to just stay here and cuddle some more with you as he smiled
Me: ain't nothing wrong with that man as he got up and gripped me putting me in his arms. He said let me return a favor but thank you cause I slept like a baby. He held me so tight and I boldly grabbed his dick to see if he was hard. He was hard like steel and it was verge of poking out the briefs.
Chris: why you grabbing my dick trying to cause me piss up myself. Morning wood is a natural thing and don't think I had it cause I want make love to you.
Me: You sure Chris? I grabbed his dick again and I put my hands in his pants. I didn't know what I was doing but I just was playing with it. He looked at me then he said Mjay are you doing. He then came on top of me spreading my legs then came between them. He kissed me on my for head then he kept going down to my neck then up to my lips and we just started locking lips. He knows me so well and he knows exactly how to make me moan. He was pinching my nipples as we were making out he said you know it's taking every power of my being not to dive my tongue deep in your cheeks. I looked at him and smile as I pulled down my pants then I said do it
Chris: he looked at me with this devilish face as he pulled my pants back up. He said Mjay what are we doing?
Me: I don't know
Chris: You with some one and your boy ain't trying to be no secret or no side dish rebound. I ain't going be no home wrecker either but you got to figure out what you want. When you do I'm always here waiting on you I'm what you need and want.
Me: You never was the rebound I said as I went quite but I understand what you saying. I tried to change the subject because it seemed a little awkward just now. What time you guys leaving tomorrow?
Chris: I don't know we was thinking about just staying then heading to Miami together. I mean if you don't mind us being here. Question where you going for spring break.
Me: I was going home for that break but I don't know I might just go some where else just do do something different. You ever thought you'd be back in my bed again?
Chris: I ain't going lie and I don't want be cocky but I know it was only a matter of time before we get back good with each other. Shit it been almost a year Mjay and that's bad.When h e said that my phone started to ring and it was Jason calling me. I didn't answer because he was suppose to call me last night and He didn't. He took my phone from me then. He said your boyfriend calling you so answer him
We were in that bed just talking about a lot of shit. He was telling me about his business plans and we talked about what we were doing. The only thing that stopped us was KJ breaking down the door saying let him in and I did. He hopped in the bed with us and he started asking all the questions.
KJ: So you two aren't mad at each other anymore right? He just smiled when he said that but I answered him
Me: no we aren't mad at each other anymore
Chris: Naw little man we aren't mad at each other
KJ: You love us again
Chris: I never stopped loving you little man , don't say that. I never stopped loving you.He was asking to much questions so I had to let his little butt go play with his cousin. He to smart for his own good. Dion slipped inside the room and he just started cracking. Chris said look at this joker!
Dion: so what's going on in here cause the last time I checked you two don't talk to much and this one has a boyfriend
Me: It's complicated
Dion: It ain't your just making it that way. He was there just lecturing me telling me don't be like him.
After all that Chris left my room and went back in the front room. I stayed in the bed just thinking about shit. I decided that I was going to break things off with jay. I love him I really do but I felt like I should've stayed single because my feelings still strong for Chris. These feelings just won't go away so I should've stayed single cause it's not fair to Jason. Me being single doesn't mean I'm going to get back together with Chris but I need too cut ties so I can really decide what I want.
My phone started to ring again and it was Jason so I answered it. I said hey babe how are you. He said no hey babe me why you didn't answer me the first time. I said why you didn't call me last Night?
Jason: I got tied up and forgot. Don't be getting smart with me Mjay.
Me: if you say so Jason. Do you want get on FaceTime and talk
Jason: Yea I'm calling you right now as it started to ring and we got off the phone. He looked at me then he said why the pillows stacked so high on the other side of the bed. I just ignored that question then he said how was your evening?
Me: Yea it was a fun evening and you? You been with your ex the hold night and you didn't call like you suppose too so I wonder how that went. He got quiet then he said
Jason: It was fun a little too fun and thats what I want to talk about. I don't think I'm ready for this? I think we should be friends then when you move back we'll pick up where we left off if our hearts are still in. I really sit down and think about it yesterday because It's going take a lot of money for us to be able to see each other. I ain't balling like Chris and them ,besides I found out last night that I still have a thing for my ex. I can't explain it just how you can't explain your feelings for Chris. Yea I know you still love him he said as I put my head down. He said it's ok Mjay cause I know if those feelings wasn't there for him we would've been happier. Same with me and I never told you this but I really was in love with my ex. I just thought you would've given me all he hasn't and you have giving me everything he hadn't. My brother brought him here because he wanted to talk to me and my brother just like Terry knows who we truly love.
Jason: Just wow? Talk to me Mjay I don't want us end on a bad note.
Me: I'm shocked because I was going break things off with you . I was unfair and not honest about my feelings for Chris. It was tearing me up because I really do love you but I'm glad it's over because I just feel like you was going to give up on me soon any way.No it ain't no bad note and your right. Question did you two have sex last night
Jason: Mjay that's not the point right now
Me: Did you two have sex just be real with me I just want to know
Jason: No we didn't. Have sex last night but we did kiss after the heart felt speeches. You was drinking with Chris did you have sex with him cause I seen the way you looked at each other when I was there.
Me: No we kissed and cuddled last night that's it.
Jason: Cool I'm not mad at all but I want us to remain friends.
Me: we could do that but I'm going to need some time because even though I still have feelings for my ex I can't deny that I was in love in love with you. In time we can be friend but right now it's to fresh to jump right into a friendship. I'm sorry it has to end this way and this doesn't mean I'm going to jump back into a relationship with Chris but I'm defiantly going take my time and do me.
Jason: Yea same here but I just thought I'd be honest and speak what's on my heart. I do love you Mjay but we not suppose to be together right now. We can't keep fooling ourselves that we are meant to be cause the signs are right in front of us that we aren't.
Me: it's just funny but you could've just left me alone a year ago if you knew all of this. I mean you probably just wanted to fuck and fell for me but sex was good too. Yea we can't keep fooling ourselves. I know but I hope everything works out for you Jay. I'm going to miss you. Take care yourself
Jason: I'm going to miss you too. We had some good times together and a lot of good sex and I hope you be more successful then ever. You deserve alł the good things that coming to you cause your a great person Mjay you deserve the best. Kiss KJ for me and tell him I will be around and come see him. I Don't want him think I forsake him at all so give him some kisses for me.I love that little kids with all my heart. He looked at me with this sad face and his eyes tearing up then he said well talk later
Me: Later. I hung up the FaceTime call and I just laid there in the bed. At this moment I don't know how to feel but I know I did the right thing letting him go. I only would've ended up hurting him. A new journey starts o so let's see how this plays out.
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