Nate: We acting so gay right now as he started to laugh. Next weekend in Miami is going to be so dam interesting. I see Blaze is taking over the Bahamas being a business man. We need to start I own company soon. The print shop we talked about
Me: Yea we need to get that in the works and blaze really is taking over. He trying to be a billionaire with Jo right on his arm. Miami will be something interesting and I'm ready!
Me: Yea Miami. We going down next week to chill with my brother and then for there new club grand opening
Kane: Sounds dope wish I can come and check things out too but it's a family trip. Oh I came to tell you that your food is ready.
Kane was just so fine to me and even him if I was single id fuck his brains out. That's if he was gay and into men but he ain't. I don't know, I kind of feel different since that thing with Chris up stairs in the room. As soon as I walked to get my food Jason called me.
Jason: Babe are you mad at me?
Me: I was a little bit
Jason: Don't be mad at me I need you in my life.
Me: Wait are you drunk?
Jason: I feel good but I'm not drunk I just wanted to make sure we we're good. I think we got a little off on the wrong foot today. I just wanted to say sorry for causing a problem
Me: I just want to say sorry too for doing the same and for my actions today. He got quiet on the phone then he said we going get better at this long distance thing I promise. I'll call later before you go to bed. Kiss KJ for me please and I love you
I never felt more guilty in my life. Thank God Chris stopped me. I just was sitting down watching him get KJ food and drink. Nate sat down long side me with his plate of food then he said no you can't get no dick from em so stop starring.
Me: I'm not thinking about that, I was watching him and KJ interact. KJ not giving up his Chris for the world.
The day just fly by as we were outside just chilling then we took it upstairs. Everyone was inside the apartment while I sat on the steps outside just thinking. Looking at the cars passed like a drunkard that I was. Suddenly I heard this voice saying bestfriend you good.
Me: Nate yea I'm good I just chilling
Nate: You got me a little worried
Me: Don't be man and you got your date in there go keep there company. Don't worry about me man
Nate: I got to worry about you cause if something bothering you it bothering me. You know how this thing go we got one feeling one soul
Me: I started to laugh then I said how come you always here to stop me from drowning but when I trying to save you you handle it yourself .
Nate: Yea cause I handle it with this as he started laughing pulling out this joint
Me:I just started laughing then as I said where the hell you get weed from and how in the world you got into smoking weed. I never you was a ganja man!
Nate: I always use to just stopped for a while but I go far from the house cause I don't want KJ see me.
Me: He little hip better be in bed cause it's late but do you see Chris is kind of ignoring me. Jason is in Nassau getting drunk with his ex and I almost had sex with mine. Sometimes I wonder if I was better off single so you can't mess up, that way if you stayed your self .
Nate: You and Jay been happy all this time don't let distance and one situation mess it up. He started to light it up the joint then he smoked it blowing the smoke out his mouth. Yea that's some good shit right there. You want a hit ?
Me: Naw I said as He gave me the joint to take a puff. I looked down at my apartment door to see if KJ was looking but I bet he was watching tv, his show probably on right now. I took the joint then I pulled it taking the the smoke into my lungs. As I exhaled it felt so good and calming.
Nate: Yes you like it
Me: Yea it's making me feel free
Nate: Yea but I don't want make you high though so give me this let me put this out
Nate and I was outside talking and then Chris came out. Nate just smiled at me then he said uh oh laughing. I just started staring at him saying shut up
He said Mjay can I talk to you right quick and I just looked up at him sitting on the step. I said yes as Nate got up and went back inside.
Me: Wassup Chris
Chris: He sat down beside me then he started laughing. I guess it only takes the best friends to get you to smoke a little high grade then
Me: What you talking about as I started to laugh
Chris: you going play dumb right now as he laughed. He then came up to me smelling my neck. I just closed my eyes as he sniffed and it felt so good to have him under me. You stink of it weed Mjay he said as he starts to laugh
Me: Yea yea yea so what you wanted to talk about
Chris: The smell I was inhaling in the house as he started to laugh. He then said Mjay getting high like he couldn't believe it
Me: We smoked weed before together so why you so shocked
Chris: I was shocked that you wanted me to stay away from it and get out the game but you smoking it .i thought you would be scared to even see that in front of you
Me: I wanted you to take me into consideration and then I had a child so that drug boy life had to go or I was gone. Besides I wanted you to be more of a man into more positive things. Look at you now?
Chris: Yea you did that and if it wasn't for you I'd probably would've end up dead by now. You changed me and turned me into the man I dreamed to be. He laugh then he said shit even KJ play a big role in molding me. I don't even get angry anymore but I still do have nightmares
Me: Why Chris? Why moms still bothering you and not letting you sleep? When last you visited her grave?
Chris: You know why because we aren't together.
Me: Oh I said with a silent voice then It clicked in my head. I thought to myself I forgot she use to give him nightmares because we were going through shit. When we got together she stopped bothering him and he slept like a baby.
Chris: Your brother in there getting a little drunk though. when last you talked to Shawn?
Me: We haven't talked for a little while, but it's no hard feelings he's just not a person I consider a friend anymore. I just think he was close to me was because he was fucking my brother. Shawn needs to grow up cause I still made time for him when I was with you.
Chris: naw you didn't! lies! Lies!
Me: Yes I did as I laughed but you was trying to kid nap me most nights taking me home by you.
Chris: Moms letting you sleep by me was a great thing
Me: No! you forget? I use to lie say I was sleeping by Terry but all the time I was getting cock up from you
Chris: Hey you cock me up too you know. I was your first and you were mine. Yea they were some good days and would you believe we were together five almost six years.
Me: Yea cause we make a good team man when you didn't piss me off.
Chris: I'm sorry
Me: It's cool man I'm over it and I'll say this now I forgive you. I won't hold in that you was playing with my heart or trying to use tactics to get me to marry you.
Chris: it didn't work and I lost you so I do regret it everyday. I'm starting to get over it though
We just looked at each other strange and for a second I saw the Chris I was so in love with. The Chris I had this mad school boy crush on. It all just came rushing back to me like a wave. Am I still in love with him? I don't know what's going on with my feelings but I'm super attracted to him right now. Suddenly Jason flashed in my head then I felt guilty for even sitting here with Chris.
Me: I think I'll go in the room and lay down for a bit as I got up. I actually felt a little light headed so I stumbled almost falling down the stairs but he caught me. He pulled me in and I was in his arms looking at him as he showcase his power.
Chris: Mjay you ok you almost took a roll there and these steps steep. He was just holding me gently then I said Im good as he looked in my eyes then we locked lips. We just started kissing heavy and passionately as I moaned. I stopped then I said Chris what are we doing I have a boyfriend. He said I don't know but this feels so dam right. Chris said I respect what you have but I just can't stay away from you. He was talking to me as he held me tight then he turned his head. When he looked I looked as it was Terry looking on shocked at what he saw us doing.
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